My song is love....

"So many of us who know love fear love.
We know that love is not the absence of pain. If anything love is the promise of pain. No one has ever loved more deeply than God."
-Erwin McManus

"And when the sun set's and the warriors return with their swords sheathed to their camp to rest, we look back at this battlefield in all its glory, all the bloodshed, and the dried tears, realizing only then that true love is the only just and holy war worth fighting.

I am so fascinated by love, this entity we all seek, and in some cases destroy. I think one of the greatest things about love is the aspect of vulnerability. we are opening ourselves up to someone that we have only encountered recently in the grand scheme of our life. Up to this point we have known every thought, feeling, and action of ourselves; and then someone enters our little kingdom and demands to know and cohabitate in our thoughts, be apart our feelings, and create memories together.”
-Stephen Christian Anberlin

"When there is love there is no power. When there is power there is no love."
-Carl Jung

I think it's ironic that I feel like I've learned more about love and relationships not being in one. I wish I could have known some of the things I'm learning now a couple years ago. I feel like I was ignorant in many ways.... I looked at love in some ways a very selfish light, desiring to have my needs met, instead of focusing on the other person. I've learned love is not about having your needs met, but showing grace, being able to get in a fight and there be enough forgiveness there to move on.

I think it's frightening to be in love.. loving requires vulnerability, not only showing affection, but recieving it, and sometimes that's harder to do for some reason. I think I've learned it's harder because by accepting love, you are also surrenduring to the possiblility of deep hurt, not only of the possibility of loosing that person, but being stripped of your own perfections and shedding light on things that are deeply hidden in your own soul you fear others seeing.

We often end up feeling deep hate and deep love towards the person that loves us the most.. we hate them because they know us better than anyone, and tell us the truth, which often times shatters our pride. In the end though we choose to love, because they bring us and challenge us to be who we really are and to become better. By accepting love we also love ourselves in return, we are shown grace, it is such an illustration of the grace that God shows us. Love is such a paradox, it is so divine, it is so mysterious, but it is the most important thing... to recieve God's love, love yourself, and accept the love that others want to give.