"..strictly speaking, no chances"

"But for a Christian, there are, stricly speaking, no chances. A secret Master of the Ceremonies has been at work. Christ who said to the disciples, "Ye have not chosen me, but I have chosen you," you can truly say to every group of Christian friends "You have not chosen one another but I have chosen you for one another." The Friendship is not a reward for our discrimination and good taste in finding one another out. It is the instrument by which God reveals to each the beauties of all the others. They are, like all beauties derived from Him, and then, in a good Friendship increased by Him through the Friendship itself, so that it is His instrument for creating as well as for revealing."

-C. S Lewis (The Four Loves)

When you love God, nothing is simply left up to chance or without significance that is such a beautiful thought to me.

thoughts...

Jesus be my reality...

books I love at the moment, wisdom gained I hope to live out: "Sex God" by Rob Bell, "A Severe Mercy", "Uprising", Erwin's incredible book that has taught me so much about gratitude...

I am...
sad to leave college, but excited about the next phase in life.
excited about California, but feeling many emotions from fear to eagerness
feeling ambiguous about the direction of my career, after this summer I'm hoping I will have more discernment
desiring a "simple" life..
sometimes feel this "pressure" to do something incredibly extraordinary with gifts given to me... sometimes I feel like I would be happy just working at a coffee shop talking to people, getting to know their hearts.
tired of analyzing so much
slightly complacent, spiritually, but trying to discern if this is luke warm faith and just a phase, and how to get out of it, what that looks like, or if Im simply over spiritualizing this... and just need to pray for Jesus to be my reality, and keep moving forward in this
wondering what honoring Him looks like in certain areas and where I'm failing in this
despising legalism
grateful for all the undeserved blessings in my life... God is so good...
this is such an interesting time... best way to describe this time in my life would be "gray"